Submitted by ThrowRa-shyguy154368 t3_11nq6o4 in relationship_advice
Well, this has been the most humiliating few days of my life.
My boyfriend took a video of me while I was sleeping and he was.. doing things to me a few nights ago. Yes, I was aware what he was doing and it was consensual acts. I just didn’t know he recorded till I fully woke up. Even in the video when I realized what was going on, I tell him I don’t want to be recorded. The video isn’t super graphic, but it is very obvious what is going on. And clearly I’m the focus of it. I don’t know what possessed him to post it on his social media accounts or if it was an accident, but I found out that morning when my phone was being blown up by concerned friends and my PARENTS. I tried contacting him for 2 hours, before he finally came home (we share a dorm) and deleted the video. He claims it was an accidentally posting, that he was just trying to make a cool edit of it and liked using that app’s editor. He said he meant to draft it, but he’s so use to posting all the time he must have went too quick with the buttons. I honestly don’t know if I believe him.. He is the type to love drama, and has caused a lot of it at my expense in the past. My friends are split 50/50 if he did it on purpose or not. And my parents already hate him, or hate I’m with a guy so my mom wants me to press charges. But his post are gone. But the video lives on. I’ve seen it re-posted by others. My face in It’s most private vulnerable states. My boyfriend has a pretty big following, and I had to delete my accounts due to perverted DMs I was getting. And apparently college is just like high school and I’ve been experiencing bullying and mocking.
I don’t even know if there is a question in there. I am just a lost hurt soul. I love my boyfriend so much I don’t want to believe he’d hurt me. But I don’t know why he was dodging me that morning, he claims his phone was off for class. He says he’s sorry and promises it was an accident, but he doesn’t seem as mortified as me. He thinks I’m overreacting when I cry about it. I’m just scared it’ll follow me, every time someone searches my name.
UPDATE:: After reading everyone’s comments for half the day and talking with close friends, I have accepted that he did in fact post it on purpose. A shared friend of ours, revealed to me that she had a recent conversation with him about wanting to have his accounts focus more on our relationship because he thought it would get him more fans. I enjoy being more private about my life, so I rarely let him post me. I don’t know why he would go so far, or why he used me. I promise I will end our relationship as soon as I can get away from him, hopefully this weekend. As for getting authorities involved, I’m sorry everyone but I’m not emotional strong enough to put myself through more humiliation.