Submitted by madeinbolivia8 t3_ydkdb0 in relationship_advice
I have a habit of buying chocolate and hiding it in my closet because tbh I hate to share it. Stupid, I know but it’s become a pattern. When he found out I did this he got angry, said he was hurt and I said I would stop. I didn’t. He realized that and got angry again and I said I would stop. I did for a while, but then he started making remarks about my buying chocolate (which he now saw because it wasn’t hidden) and that really annoyed me. So I hid some again. Today, while I was out he decided to go through my closet and found my stash. When he confronted me I lied and said it was old, and continued to lie when he told me that he had gone through it before and it wasn’t there, and then I kept trying to deny it by basically blaming it on someone else. In the end of course I admitted it (way too late) and asked him to forgive me and said I was deeply sorry and felt so guilty for doing it which is absolutely true. He told me he is disgusted by me and my behavior and that he can’t believe a single word that comes out of my mouth and that he will never trust me again. I’ve apologized a million times, and feel really bad for doing it but he will not forgive me. I know he is absolutely right, but I feel that the treatment he is giving me is acting like punishment, and that he has been going through my stuff just to catch me red handed. I am in the wrong, I know, but deep down I feel like he wanted to catch me doing something so he has a right to be angry at me and not talk to me while I continue to beg for forgiveness. (He has previously gone through my phone, and as he admitted himself gone through my stuff on more than one ocasion). Id love to read your thoughts and help me with what you think I should do. The guilt is really killing me.