Submitted by Throwaway4958392028 t3_yfbx91 in relationship_advice
I was raped in my early 20s and my son resulted from that. I didn't want an abortion so I carried him then had an open adoption. Since I was so young I didn't feel like I could raise him so he went to a loving home and I told them I'd reach out when I felt in a better place mentally. It never happened, the assault took a much larger toll on me than I thought it would, I'd say within the last year have I finally gotten my mental health om track but I'm basically a mid 20s person in my nearly 40s. It was a rough time.
His parents evidently told him about me not feeling ready to reach out yet, but they reached out to me and wanted to know if I'd chat with him. So we've been texting and he's telling me of all these wonderful experiences he got to have as a child that he wouldn't have with me, he seems so excited to meet him and I'm just scared, it sounds like he has me built up in his head to the point I'm just going to let him down, and I really don't want that. It goes as far as he thinks his dad and I just had a fling when we were young. I just don't know what to do