Submitted by throwanon022 t3_ynmfc1 in relationship_advice
So, this might sound like a high school bullshit but i need to say it, i found a few similar situation on this sub but mine is a bit different,i'm in a relationship of 5 years, we live togheter everything is ok, i remember the first night with her like it was yesterday, she told me that i'm the first one for her, she reminded me many times how much she love me and that i was the only one she trusted to have sex, 5 years later, she left the town and forget one of her phones, i was curious what she was talking about me with her best friend at the begining of our relationship and what i saw shocked me to the bones, she was telling her how she fucked his first guy on chritsmas eve, doggy, deepthroat and even anal and how cool it was, few days later she breaked up with him and meet again with her ex and also fucked him after new year party, doggy on the desk, oral, etc...and a few more times later on the car backseat and also telling her how much she loves him and how good it felt, better than the first guy. Where is the problem, first of all the problem is that she lied about her sexual past but I'll get over it, after a few months of relationship I wanted to break up with her, I realized she wasn't my type, I couldn't, she cried for days on end telling me how i stole her innocence and i can't leave her, one of her colleagues wrote to me to talk to her so she doesn't end up in the hospital. At that time I really liked another girl with whom I talked occasionally, i dumped her for my actual gf because "i stole her innocence". A month has passed and I can't look at her the same way anymore, I always think maybe I would have been happier, more accomplished if I was with the other girl, i have a hard time sleeping, the last 5 years haunt me.
EDIT: many people ask me if she has ever lied to me about something else, the answer is no, or usually no, she is a good and loyal person, she loves me very much, she has proven it many times and she is much more mature than 5 years ago , many also said to tell her what I saw in front of her, I did this a week after reading the messages, she tried to deny it at first like she was joking but after I told her more details she became nervous in the end she said that it's none of my business anyway and if I want to be happy don't ever talk about it because it's none of my business.