Submitted by CaptainTomatoWaters t3_y7szou in tifu
3 years ago my girlfriend found my porn addiction. After she found it I finally stopped. We had a daughter 2 months ago and while she was pregnant i went through a huge bout of depression and anxiety. Ive never gotten help for my traumas and am currently seeking it. When that bout started i tried to talk to her about it but she shrugged it off. I got deeper into it to the point i went back to my habit only worse this time. I spent hundreds on only fans and started taking pictures of people without them knowing. I dont fully know why i do these things but i do them. After my daughter was born my life changed and i finally felt ok again. I was moving the pictures out of a hidden photo app to delete them. Stupid i know cause i could have deleted them in the app. They synced to google photos and she asked to see my phone to look at something. She went through my photos and saw everything. So i havent seen my daughter in 2 days even though im in the basement of the house we live in. I have to wait for her to sleep to go upstairs and use the bathroom or get food. I feel so empty and alone. I just want to be a good dad. Morale of the story if you feel you need help do whatever you can to get it. Wether or not the person you are with can see how bad it is. Dont let it get to this point.
TL:DR my girlfriend found my porn addiction. Kicked me in the basement. Havent seen my newborn daughter in two days.
Edit: honestly i just needed more than just one person to tell me how horrible i am. I didnt want attention. I wanted to feel worse. People around me keep telling me its ok youll get better. I needed other people to tell me how shit i am so i feel compelled to get help. Im currently in the process of getting that help. I know i should be in jail.