Submitted by demoninthestacks t3_z0sgzj in tifu
I was at a small party with my friend (F) and her husband (S) in their London flat. We were drinking and playing games and all of us were getting tipsy. F and I went back to the bathroom and were talking about being bi and stuff like that.
She asks me if I’m attracted to her and I’m like “Yea of course I am but I’m not doing anything about it because you’re married obviously.”
F laughs and says something about her and her husband being open and one thing leads to another and we’re making out heavily and fingering each other. Neither of us are sober but she’s drunker than I am.
We hear a creak from the hallway and F gets up, shuts off the light, and peeks out the door. The mood has noticeably shifted. She starts kissing me again, but I pull away and say, “Would S be okay with this?”
F shrugs and says, “He doesn’t have to know about it.” Reddit, ice went down my spine. I stopped it and said I wasn’t comfortable with it anymore because I didn’t want to break them up or ruin a family. Cheating has ruined my mom’s family and I never wanted to do that to somebody else.
We clean up, agree to never say a word to anyone, and go on about our night. I leave pretty soon after and catch a ride home on the tube. Now I’m laying in bed and am just consumed by anxiety and the what-ifs.
Please just lambast me in the comments, I deserve it. I feel like a right shit.
TL;DR : I got too drunk, told a married friend I was attracted to her and became the other woman by accident
ETA Update: I’ve been reading everyone’s comments and really taking them to heart. I’m in the process of scheduling an appointment with my therapist to figure out how to deal with all of it. I wish I was exaggerating when I say this has driven me to the edge of my mental health. I can’t sleep, can barely focus. Me and my therapist are going to work out the best way to handle this. Things went out of control and I wish I could just take everything back. Thank you all for all the comments (even the ones that were hard to read).