How was their response emotional?

Girl go to your cousins funeral. Get off reddit.

It's the gift that keeps on giving all year long, Clark.

You didn't fuck anything up, your boyfriend was fine and it was an accident. I'm sure your friends don't think you truly ruined anything. Otherwise they're not very good friends. If this happened to me, yeah it might be painful for a bit but I'd just laugh it off.

This world will be a better place without you too 😂

u cheated on ur gf. u deserve it.

Bro chill. People like you are the problem. Whenever someone like op is trying to get help or advice because they know they fucked up, we have people like you immediately making them feel worse.

No wonder people kill themselves before seeking help. Judging by your words. You're a terrible person too

Debatable

Deserved

I said it before and I'll say it again. Alcohol is poison to the mind, soul and body. I don't understand why anyone drinks or enjoys it. Also I would never drink if I was the only one drinking. You're just asking for a bad time

That’s what you get for cheating. Doesn’t even really seem like you’re that sorry about it, but more sorry about contracting a bunch of shit. You broke up with her, cause you couldn’t tell her why you got genital warts, not because you actually felt bad. I can’t really feel sorry for you, the whole post reads as woe is me for being a fucking cheater.

What did u do for the friendship to end the first time?

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I’m sorry man :(

Hey, lube has many uses besides anal.

this and that

Not terrible parenting or OCD to clean up wrapping paper on Christmas day really tho is it

No obviously the situation at hand is deeply problematic, I could never argue against that, I meant I don't have an alcohol addiction.

Edit: Also, that still doesn't mean it's a drinking problem, as others have pointed out it's a self control problem.

If you sexually assault someone while you were so drunk you don't even remember all the details that's pretty much the definition of a problem.

What a ridiculous claim.

No, I don't want anyone to tell me I'm a good person or to show me sympathy. I have not done anything to take responsibility yet, an attempt at an apology is not taking responsibility, I know that. I open this thread to have a place to converse about it so that I could process it and gain perspective, because, to be perfectly frank, I had difficulty reflecting on the situation, all I was consumed by was the pain and the guilt and the feeling of not being able to make right. I still have all of these feelings, but the feedback I have been getting is encouraging me to better myself. I intend to stop drinking, not because "alcohol is at fault and that fixes the problem" but because I want to eliminate any and all risk factors that could lead to me becoming a liability again and also, though this is just a loose idea floating around in my head as of right now and I don't even know if or how I would go about it, but since I am a psychology student (not intending to become a therapist, don't worry) I was thinking that maybe, after graduating, I could focus my career on working on sexual assault prevention campaigns and studies so as to ensure that no others have to go through what I put her through.

Edit: I thought about prevention specifically because I think that is an area that is still scarily underdeveloped despite the obvious need for it and the research to base it on being there, but more importantly I would be choosing prevention because after what I have done I could not ever possibly feel comfortable working with victims who already had to suffer through it, even when I get to a point where I can be 100% sure that I won't be doing anything like this again.

I've not tried to hold up a conversation, you have just deliberately tried to defend your actions.

Ok so what’s your actual plan because it sounds like you just want sympathy without effort, like you want us to tell you you’re a good person for “taking responsibility” (anonymously online). So what are you actually going to do. Why should I not see you as a predator who will hurt people again

I don't want to make it sound like it was because of the alcohol, that is not what I am trying to do here. I only bring it up to portray the situation more accurately. I do absolutely intend to take the consequences and to take full responsibility and to better myself so that this doesn't happen again.

I am not depressed because I am a "douche bag", I am depressed because I am depressed and on top of that I turned into a "douche bag" somewhere along the line. I have been depressed since the age of 13, at which I was still an innocent kid. But stopping to be a "douche bag" is something I have to do either way so that's what I'll be working on.