Actually, yeah, I was lying about the diagnosis part. I have tested negative for every STD, 3 months out. That being said, I haven't had the courage to ask for a herpes test. I've never gotten herpes symptoms, but I'm afraid I might be an asymptomatic carrier. Had to break up with my gf bc of the slight chance I actually am. Before the condom breaking, it didn't even cross my mind that I might get an STD.

This is beautiful bro :)

Keep trying. You'll get there.

I could have gotten sex sooner if I had gone to my gf. I wanted to know if I was gonna embarrass myself in front of her.

Or just slap a sticker on Tim.

Live and learn 😂

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What can I do if what I regret continues to happen despite my best efforts to change it?

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You don’t deserve love

What everyone else said. Even you freely admitted you had broken up for a reason yet decided to cheat on your current gf anyway.

Trust is like paper, once crumpled it can never be what it was. Time to move on from what you have right now, it'll never be the same. Your SO will be forever wandering if you're with someone else and suspicion will only sour things. It's not going to get better, only worse.

Besides, your SO deserves to be with someone that actually cares about who they're with.

I was diagnosed with gastric cancer in my 30s. I've had a history of bloody stool. They were completely unrelated. Hemorrhoids are way more likely. Cancer at your age is unlikely, though, as I can attest as a cancer survivor, getting it checked out is the right thing to do. You'll feel a lot better when they are able to tell you exactly what is causing this and how to prevent it. Try not to sweat it too much and stop Googling it! The Internet will tell you everything is a symptom of terminal cancer!

Give any you don’t need to a local food bank. It will be much appreciated

Going outside is definitely something I wouldn't recommend doing when you get high for the first time. The paranoia sets in quick when you see tons of other people around - you constantly feel like everyone's staring at you and knows you're high. Hope this didn't turn you away from weed!

Best you can do is try to explain how it just slipped out (I've been there) and hope he understands that you just want to continue what you have (maybe feelings grow later).

If you feel that you'll never love him that way, don't keep him on the hook. I know it sucks, but you'll have to be blunt with him.

I don't much care if you believe me. Though I'd still recommend taking that concept to heart, not that difficult to be honest and transparent.

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Yeah, this is why I don't fuck on edibles. I've definitely had some creeper, but when you eat it, it gets hard to gauge, then there's no dialing it down. Just need to feel good, not completely zoned. I have made some killer snickerdoodles in the past, though.

Like you don’t have any secrets that you aren’t telling anyone about. You live a life of complete transparency. Seriously? I don’t think so.

If your gut told you to back off, then it was very likely saving your life

After all these years Its still fun fucking up tvs in stores with phone as remote

Lots of stuff from Trader Joe’s. Everything organic. Expensive cheese and herbs. Latkes (they had Hanukkah). Expensive kosher roast of some kind with otherwise normal holiday sides (nuts, potato, sweet potatoes).

Best bit is the huge specialty dessert box from a French bakery. They had three desserts, ate a few pieces, and packed up the rest.

ETA: but SHE doesn’t shop. Either her housekeeper does (who works M-F, 40ish hours a week plus holiday events as she’s Asian and has different holidays), or she has my friend or her daughter do it. She is a millionaire who won’t even put away their own food or see the inside of a grocery store.

You really should delete this before the intelligence services of the country who's government building you bombed uses this post to track your IP address and hunt you down.

Let me see that thong-ong-ong-ong-ong.

Baby. That thong, thong, thong, thong, thong.

Dude. last year for my birthday i had similar, passing blood in large quantities, it was a polyp that had turned cancerous, and they ALSO discovered a lesion in my small intestine that was cancerous, i lost some of the end of my small intestine and my ascending colon and they scraped the polyp and rectal wall out and i'm going for one year colonoscopy end of next month, then again i was 39 then, so its a better chance its haemorrhoids for you, so good luck that its something simple