> I ask her if she wants some MDMA, ofc why not she says, and we ended up taking most of the gram that i had, some were left but i couldn't even see so i didnt care.

You offered a 19 year old transgirl drugs, that you know makes people horny, and then had sex with her.

I appreciate your comment but I kinda disagree with you. But not 100% sure maybe you r right ahah

Like I see myself as realistic person. I don’t think that she might started dating someone bc she’d found someone better, I assume that it is possible bc hardmode version relationship on distance when you don’t see each other in person for 3 or 6 months slowly killing feelings and bindings. And when I write that she’s a 10 and it counts I mean that life is life and when everyday fcking shittone of different guys craving for her attention, chances that one could get lucky grows from week to week, from month to month.

As for my self esteem, I don’t feel myself inferior, I wouldn’t call myself 10 either but a solid 8 easily. But for guys it’s ok to be less attractive then your gf as long as you have some personality.

Ofc as many of us without narcissistic disorder I tend to question my “coolness” in my own eyes but I don’t think that it’s time to worry about self esteem. Buuut, maybe you are right and if I accomplish smthing I believe is great I would become less worrying person

P.S. Thank you for complimenting my English

Fuck that. If my gf took MDMA and took a young girl to our home, and had sex with her, I'd never want to see my ex again.

That might be right but im also kinda a victim here, she knew i was high on drugs, 100% and still slept with me, i mean jeez if i ever will is right

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>RepresentativeNew718

I was going to take it alone anyways since my wife left and couldn't take it with me, sorry im fucking dumb. i didnt even know the dose i should take as well so it was kinda all over before it started.

plan was not to walk into a random bar and pick up the first person i see it was to feel the rush and have fun

It cant end like this man, ill be finished and alone in this world, all because i took some drug, i did even more than that, shit i would never even imagine doing..

I had a chuckle while typing. 😝 And everyone else who show it.

Yes

My mockery?

ive messed up ill admit that, didnt cheat, and i would never go for someone whos not a cis women

So obviously you’ve made a huge mistake, but the next wrong move would be to listen to any random Redditor’s advice because they don’t have the same stake or interest in your relationship that you do. Most people on Reddit would like to see someone who cheats or makes a mistake have their entire life ruined as a way to “take responsibility”. Sure you’ll have to tell your wife at some point, but fortunately life is full of possibilities and your relationship doesn’t have to end over some drug fueled infidelity.

>if i ever will

Fucking do it. You treated her bad, at least admit it to her.

im going to but the problem is we come from a muslim family, if she tells her family ill lose my own family. im going to tell her but also make an exit plan

honestly I just wanted to because I thought it would be cool. Doing and having stuff that's supposed be impossible is fun

>it was just something that became out of the situation

>i was not myself

"Sentences both my cheating exs told me after they cheated, for 500!"

It’s your fault that you weren’t yourself. Take some responsibility and tell your wife.

i was not myself, i lost it fully man, it was just something that became out of the situation, im not even into trans women g

? You chose to take drugs and to have sex with someone else

Why oh why would you ever take mdma alone?

Rip your marriage.

Maybe you don't want to hear this. Maybe you need to hear this.

You lack self-confidence.

I'm only saying this because I also lacked it when I was much younger. None of that "talk good about yourself in a mirror" crap is going to fix that. If you have to talk yourself up all the time, then you still lack confidence. Part of your mind sees yourself as inferior, and that your lady would drop you to the side for someone "better" than you. This all stems from a lack of self-confidence, my friend.

Do something about it. It doesn't even matter what it is. Paint a picture, sketch a tree, learn to cook foreign cuisine, take up a martial art, cut down a tree even. Build a Koi Fish pond. Feed some wild animals at a park. Write a poem, a book... an opera. Take up flash dancing, photography, caligraphy. Get lost in the woods. Climb a mountain. Jump off of a fishing boat for fun.

Just do something and keep doing it until you kick ass at it. The self-confidence will occur on its own. That is my sincere advice to you, from one man to another.

Also your English is perfectly fine.

I would never think of doing something like that ever man, its a mistake

God, I knew where this was going a mile away. I hope your wife finds out and leaves you.

Yeah i also forgot to mention that i have to tell my wife but not sure how or if i ever will

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