Today (in 2018) a young man on acid realized that all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration, that we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively, there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves.

Here's Tom with the Weather.

-Bill Hicks

Shouldn't he be able to discuss his problems with his family, it's absurd to insist he can't talk things through with those most important to him

Looks like Mr. Mistofeles!

Don’t forget… we always hurt the ones we love, but being someway pretentious with people we don’t care so much about to appear perfect. Just explain that you had a hot moment for xxxx reason and you of course didn’t mean that and bring up some 6-7 years old memory that was a “standard” in his part.

I had to take a piss test for my job. For fun I kept calling it a piss taste and calling the guy administering the test the piss taster. Needless to say, he got...pissed. True story

So he's fine with you taking time off work to study and pay the difference. But you're angry when he took time off to both spend with you and STUDY that he didn't do enough? You're gonna end up doing more if one of you is trying to study, surely you understand that

Yeah that's it.

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Got it, and I pseudo-understand everyone's side in this,

I've got a disabled kid and have worked two jobs throughout the relationship. It would be easy to get bitter and complain, but my wife has always been there to support me and has helped with the kids. If she came out and told me how she shaped them from a young age, I'd agree!

Keeping score in relationships is a sure-fire way to ensure you will be divorced. It's a partnership, and sometimes one group will give more than the other, but it should even out in the end and both sides should come to an agreement that responsibility has been largely shared and that love supported the remainder.

Perhaps your husband is lazy or didn't contribute (it's impossible to determine without his side), but I'd just drop it and focus on the good things each of you are doing now. The father of your children being proud at his role as a parent is a positive thing some would kill for (unless he truly is a deadbeat).

Hope you two can come together, but this line of thinking is a death sentence for a family.

i’ve definitely read this one before, here, it’s deleted but the title is still there, and if you use the wayback machine you can read it:

https://www.reddit.com/r/tifu/comments/wz0r0e/tifu_by_following_military_pee_test_protocol/

That’s it ^

No need to be sorry, it was a cool experience. My biggest regret is that it's made me too anxious to do acid anymore.

I can try to explain, but it's difficult because it's just a hard thing to explain, and because I was basically half blacked out. It also might have just been a full blown psychotic break. There were basically thoughts and ideas in my head that weren't mine. I can remember very vividly how it started, all of a sudden the alphabet went through my mind, but it didn't feel like I was thinking the alphabet, it felt like someone else was pressing a keyboard and the alphabet was appearing in my mind.

I wonder now if it happened again if I could handle it differently. At this point I'm like 50/50 if it was real or just nonsense. Assuming it was nonsense, I wonder if I could have controlled myself if I realized it was nonsense. Before this happening, my brain never had to consider if what it was thinking was real. I didn't even have the capacity to think "is this thought nonsensical?" Now I think I do, and I think maybe if I ever had thoughts that seemed to deal with the nature of reality, I could stop myself and say "Yes this might be true, but this also might just be my brain miss-firing"

Did you and your husband work the same amount at this time?

Och we all had to start somewhere. It's a funny anecdote, put it down to inexperience and tell the story at parties, move on. So so much more to discover.

He shouldnt be doing that, he is tainting any relationship with them. Any problems the two of you have should stay between you two.

I took a year off then finished at a local school closer to home. I was already a year ahead of schedule from AP credits anyway. All of my trips to this point had been buttery smooth, the idea that something could happen that would prevent me from taking my other final never occurred to me, and only ended up costing me 1 class that I didn't really need

What's wrong with it being mostly you, if he still helped out? I feel like television programming, social media, and entertainment tries to drop these points of contention to make both men and women really angry and discontent about nothing.

It's harmful to marriages, it's harmful to co-parenting, and it's created a lot of hurt and abuse to kids and the adults they grow up into.

You aren't in a race to provide, and you aren't in a race to change the most diapers. Every couple can work something out that makes them the most content.

I maybe out of pocket but it comes off as you being ungrateful and resentful. You note what he was doing the fall back on “but I did”. It undermines what he was doing and comes off like it’s not enough. You note he helped a little while doing x or x and y. Then fall back to then throw shade cause you were only doing one thing while on leave.

You comment about money problems… while he doing what it sounds like to solve those and then trying to put in work.

I feel like this is similar to a scenario with my sister. She had kids. She lost SO MUCH time. I feel bad, she missed out on a lot. Her man worked his ass off and tried to be there when he wasn’t tired or beat. He hid it. He would talk to me all the time about how much of a failure he feels like as a dad. Like how he never there. How hard it is and how his kids are close to my sis and kind of with him.

My sister said stuff to him like this and it destroyed him. He never recovered. I wonder if your husband has these thoughts. You should talk to him. I bet he wants to be there.

Idk if you’ve ever switched your body’s clock to another shift but you can’t just flip it for one night. I abused sleep meds to do this. I’m 38 and paying a hard price for this. Breathing issues, head pains, and other issues all cause I worked nights for 7 years and would up n down my sleep by taking a Benadryl or Tylenol sleep till my stomach bled. But hey I paid the bills and still did shit I wanted right?

I’m not meaning to attack you but I think your lost in your feelings and thoughts and definitely think your disconnected from your hubby and the true impact of your words and thoughts of what he should be doing.

This is exactly why resentment is so important to address, because left unchecked it comes out sideways 7 years later.

All the time in the world can pass, if it's not dealt with then it's still there.

You’re 100000% correct here. It’s something that’s happened way too long ago and shouldn’t even be relevant to todays issues. The more I talk about it the more I think I see why I said it but it doesn’t make it okay nor justified. I definitely explained to him why I think I said it and apologized for saying it and that I do acknowledge how great of a parent he is with our child. I don’t want him to think I see less of him or anything like that. I know I fucked up. Bleh. I feel super shitty about it.

No. I was only at home during my maternal paid fmla leave. I returned to work after three months. I’ve never been a stay at home parent. Back then I actually worked 40+ just to afford our bills. I did work part time for a couple of months upon returning to work but part time was still 30 hours. And I was a full time student. Maybe that’s where this past resentment came from. I’m still a full time college student and my job is much more difficult and I’m full time. I’m always tired or depressed anymore and I just took it out on him. He makes more money than I do but accumulative I’m putting out more working hours than he does when I combine my work hours and school hours.

in general even if it was completely true that’s still way past expired as something you can bring up. harboring things like this and calling them out of the blue way down the line is just hurtful and not constructive. if you have a problem express it right away or you pretty much lose your right to, things like this are much more hurtful to hear after the fact because nothing can be done about it. then they also have to assume that you have just been resenting them the whole time for it. not trying to make you feel any worse about the situation but that’s just not healthy communication even if it was truthful. i’m sure if you try to explain to him that other factors were at play like him sleeping late, and explain that it was just misplaced anger he will probably understand.

Did you ever finish school? If not, you should. These are the sort of mistakes that happen in youth. Don't let it define the rest of your life. But honestly, who takes acid when they still have a final left? You couldn't wait another few days?

The real question is, during those first 3 years was he working and you at home? Him working would eat up A LOT of time.

OP really sorry for what happened. If you don't mind can you share what exactly you mean by universe was talking to you. I trip on acid and i usually trip alone, i would like to be better prepared for stuff like this, that's why I'm asking.