Fucked around and found out

OP is lucky that they didn't get hurt, too. "Acid" often isn't LSD--it's often other psychedelic drugs like NBOMe's, that have a narrow window between a physiologically safe dose and a dose that can cause cardiac arrest, internal bleeding, gangrene of the limbs, and other nasty things. It's naive to buy acid and trust the dealer that it's LSD and that the dose is 100mcg--even if the dealer truly believes it! They probably bought it from another dealer, after all.

Yeah, this retelling is an abridged, probably more emotive than scientific, explanation what was going through my head at the time.

I've been drunk/ high before and this didnt feel like either of those things.

I know it sounds unbelievable, it sucks having cocktails with girlfriends how intensely my bad dating stories trump theirs

I know exactly what that feels like but fortunately for me it happened off campus (10+ years ago)

I ended up outside mostly naked and eventually in the hospital. I had taken 6 grams of mushrooms and smoked cannabis on the comeup.. I later realized that with certain people cannabis can trigger this type of experience if smoked on the comeup of a sufficiently strong psychedelic. Super high doses of a psychedelic can do it on their own as well (as you learned) and the chances increase as the dose gets more and more absurd. Some are just more sensitive or susceptible for whatever reason.

Oddly Im not a fan of nitrous but noticed 2 nitrous balloons triggers that sort of delusional trip as well for me but it's extremely brief.

Be careful if you ever trip again on a large amount or combined with cannabis. I've learned to navigate better now but it was not without risk. A hyperspatial imagination combined with the hyper-suggestibility of that state can lead to some seriously confusing experiences even if you are experienced. I had tripped countless times in a solo setting of self exploration before it ever became a problem and it wasn't until I was able to journey with my wife and friends that I learned what the issue was and how to navigate it.

If you want to talk anymore about it feel free to message me. Glad you're ok!

Dont beat yourself up tho!! I can totally understand where youre coming from and probably women in general, at least sooo many women i know and myself are dealing with something in that area ( its acctually been named “the third shift that falls on women” in my country haha ) and even if it happened 7 years ago there can be lingering triggers that pop up in certain situations. I dont know how well this experience was resolved between you guys at the time or if you were able to express this openly enough to heal but being a new mom is just very challenging in itself and for you to be back at it so soon ( work and school ) i mean… phew

Acid makes you do crazy things, I once took some and ended up driving a moped across Bali with a toothless hooker.

lol what? you think permanent expulsion is an appropriate punishment for public nudity?

Who are you, the ghost of queen victoria?

This happens to me like two or three times a day. /s

I'll be okay :)) Have some Midol and a heating pad, and plenty of chocolate. Mostly upset because I had plans for making content this week that now have to wait

My wife and I have had to work hard to get through a lot of the same types of feelings you indicate here.

The number one thing you must do, both, when these thoughts and reactions come up is communicate. It can be extremely hard, painful, sad, but you cannot move forward while you drag the past with you.

I implore you to do that, depending on your situation there may be some counciling that can be done, or mom groups, many libraries have numerous programs, online groups, etc.

I am not trying to say you are nuts, but everyone needs help, and that can be in many forms and methods, seeking help, being open, honest.. that leads to hope, stability, comfort.

If you love your family and your SO, then you need to try to set aside any resentment and let yourself heal, let yourself be OK, find things that let you unwind, give you breaks, and in the long run that provides stability for you, them, everyone.

You can't be expected to be perfect, no one can be, so accept that you are not, he isn't, and that's OK. Like a rock in the ocean the waves pass, but you don't need to be made to live in an eternal storm. Feelings are good, but if you react like you did, and casually mention it was from sadness and depression, frustration at having to be the sole person handling the child... yeah, been there, that feeling sucks, and couple that with down thoughts, simmering resentment because we are human, and in some cases logical and emotional crash and burn...

Well, like I said, get some help, people who feel down and sad deserve help, discussion, the ability to process and cope, just like anyone else. That's not shameful, and there are many places to find help when it is needed.

I hope you are able to find some peace, and calmness for you. You matter as much as anyone, and that is a priceless lesson for a child or partner, we all deserve that. Sometimes it's not an easy journey, but it's worth shooting for, and shows others that this is not weakness or to be buried, acceptance and love see you through, self first then others.

It’s probably a mix of both, or a whole lot of crystal meth

I'm sorry, is this a piece of fiction you've put in the wrong sub? If it's not, you really need some help.

There is a difference between talking to them about having troubles, it's a totally different thing to bad mouth her.

eh give him some really attentive lovemaking and he will forget allll about it.

It was that "we will walk through the fire" one. But I know when I wrote it down, when I was tripping, in my head I was writing down the meaning of life and the universe and the nature of consciousness. Acid is weird. I never did it again, it's not that it wasn't (mostly) enjoyable per-se, it's just I was so relieved when I woke up the next day and everything had stopped moving.

Edit: Just for a nostalgic laugh, for any of you who've never taken acid, here are a few bits I vaguely remember from my trip (was about 20 years ago now):

1. At one point, I believed I'd become a cartoon character. The whole world looked to me like a quite crudely drawn, 2D Family Guy style animation.

2. For a while, people's faces were morphing in to long, rat-like features and it looked like they were laughing at me in a very sinister way. I didn't enjoy that part.

3. I was a genie for a while too. Like, I wanted a sandwich and suddenly I had one and I was eating it. No sense of any time passing or any memory of doing anything between wanting a sandwich and having it in front of me. I realised I'd run out of cigarettes, then suddenly boom a fresh pack of cigarettes were in my hand. I named my genie self Barok the Great.

4. In a later part of my trip, I experienced going and making the sandwich, just completely out of place in time. Like splicing a video in the wrong order or something, only that's what I actually experienced.

5. I could see sound waves coming out of speakers. That was really cool. And you can just be looking at a wall or something and it just melts and blends and becomes the coolest looking kaleidoscope thing, or something like that. The visuals are a very unique experience.

6. Trails. If you ever do take acid, you'll 100% have this happen. You move your hands and you just see an after image of your fingers, like a duplicate, trailing for a few seconds.

7. It can be bad too. My trip eventually went a bit sour, I can't remember why but I had some negative thought and it just manifested in some way and I remember I really wanted the trip to end and to just sober up but I couldn't. That's the downside of acid, once you're in, you're in for as long as it lasts and it lasts a long time.

8. The mental part. People don't often talk about this bit but it's not just hallucinations and weird philosophical thoughts and feelings, when you come up it feels like you've done about 20 bong hits back to back. It's intense. That bit does seem to mellow out later though.

When I got back from the hospital, I knew I opened a word doc on my computer to write the secrets, and was excited to see what I wrote.

"John's world" is all I wrote (except with my real name instead of John)

I'm still 50/50 on if the experience was real, or some trick of the brain where it applies meaning to things that are meaningless.

I re-watched Star Trek TNG and there was an episode that really stood out to me in light of my experience. They run into a race who's language they can't understand or translate, and eventually they realize that they speak solely in metaphor. They explain it like this: If I say "Juliet on her balcony" to communicate the idea of romance, those words mean nothing to somebody that doesn't know about Romeo and Juliet. They're apparently non-sense, they carry no real meaning.

To me, discovering the secrets of the universe felt like I was solely thinking in metaphor: 1-0, push pull. But it felt like there was something /more/ behind those thoughts at the time. Once I sobered up, all I left was the seemingly meaningless metaphors, whatever the deeper meaning behind them was lost to me.

Of course, that meaning might be lost because it might have never existed. I'm 50/50 on if that's the case. Before the trip I was a hyper-logical person. I was an atheist that didn't believe in greater powers or anything large and mysterious in the universe. But having the experience, I've started to consider the possibility that we understand 0.00000000001% of the universe, and that there are many things beyond our imagination or comprehension.

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But which song was it? I love the songs in that episode.

Haha

I’ve had drugs test for sports before. They needed to physically see my dong and pee come out. The bottles were split in to A and B samples. Once screwed on you couldn’t undo them. You had to cut the tops off.

If the urine was too dark or light the guy would need another sample from me.

The fuckers are cheeky. They tested me twice within 4 days to see if I was getting back on the sauce. They did the same to my brother also since we lived together.

😂🤣😂😜

I took acid once when I was 18 and remember clearly feeling like I was one with the universe and completely understood everything there was to be understood. It was like a completely transcendental experience of consciousness where my being and the whole universe were the same thing. I wrote down some notes about the secrets of the universe while I was tripping.

The next day I couldn't remember what any of the secrets of the universe were and it turned out the notes I'd written were just lyrics to one of the songs in the musical Buffy episode.

This sort of thing seems to be a common experience with LSD.

I had a psychotic break once and it fucked me up. It happened when i tried DMT on LSD and i have been reluctant to try that combination again. I often think about what happened during psychotic break and how i can have handled things better.

> At this point I'm like 50/50 if it was real or just nonsense

I think it's real but you can never prove it to anyone. Don't bother trying to prove it cause reality will not allow it or some shit like that.

For anyone reading this, if you ever find yourself in a situation like this just remember the drugs will be metabolized by your body within a day and you will be alright eventually, you just need bide your time. So stay where you are and sit tight and don't make any rash decisions. And definitely do not take more drugs.

Slightly behind by european standards. But not by much.

Over 50% have had sex by 16. Going by that and my childhood experience. I assume alot of teens try something around 12 to 14.

So yea, no intimacy by 16 is weird.

"My job is much more difficult." I don't think anyone realizes how hard someone else's job is until they try it. Whether or not someone job is easier than yours, is a wild thing to assume.

If his job earns more money, it's more likely his job is complicated. Complicated job requires a lot more thought and effort