that doesn't sound true tho. you guys both messed up, the communication here is just not it. you really really shouldn't be blaming yourself entirely when she didn't clue you into any of this. you're not a horrible person, you just sound like youre in your 20s

That's the thing, she's told me that it wouldn't have come to this if I didn't lie about it. I don't think she can get herself to trust me on anything anymore

You dodged a bullet.

Yes you lied by omission, but why did she seem to be ok with mocking you for not being sexually experienced?

She supposedly wasn't experienced either.

Very juvenile behavior.

also mentioning that she still thinks youre not over your last relationship and the two of you having had sex influences that... it's just weird

This is stupid

chubbyemu’s our boi!

yeah no dude that's a really weird assumption to make about a person. if it's that important to her and she didn't establish that out the gate esp when you tried to clear it up then.... idk what to say she just doesn't sound particularly mature or good with communication. you should've been more clear earlier for sure but i understand what an awkward sitch it put you in. i know youre going thru it rn but ngl it sounds like it wouldve imploded one way or another. not entirely your fault

She broke up with him for lying. Not for being a virgin

I don't really think that is an issue. Apologies if my post made it seem that way. Her issue is that I lied to her about it, or didn't have the balls to clear it up

>She always joked about me not being experienced enough sexually.

What is the "joke"? Does she believe in sexually experienced virgins? She sounds like someone who doesn't know WTF she wants. I think you shouldn't form serious relationships with people who make jokes about subjects they "do not take casually". That's a red flag.

I don’t do shrooms anymore, I had a really bad trip that was comparable to his experience.

I knew the source of the shrooms and the Id they were just super potent.

Again it’s entirely possible it was just shrooms.

She never asked the question directly and I never said anything about it either. I wasn't sure if she was joking about me being a virgin till a few months back when I realised she'd assumed this for the longest time. Even before this, I'd tried telling her once that I'd had experience in an indirect way and she brushed it off. We never had a direct conversation about it.

You both probably made a mistake, but that’s young love for ya. Don’t beat yourself up too much about it.

Op, from what I gather you didn't lie, you told her you had experience and she brushed it off.

Furthermore, she has no reason or right to get angry for whatever you did with your exgirlfriend nor is it sane for her to get angry whenever you mention it.

She's downright toxic and you dodged a bullet IMHO.

Yeah. Apparently it has been twisted into an insult now.

No TYFU by lying, not by confessing.

Were you using a loud-ass vibrator, or a loud ass-vibrator?

Spoken like somebody who doesnt do shrooms

Shouldn't have lied but anyone who makes virginity into that big of a deal is not someone I'd want to be with.

The fact that she broke up with you because you’ve had sex before tells me she’s weird as hell and not worth your time anyway.

Normal shrooms very much can do that to you

i mean, did you explicitly say you were a virgin? did she ask? or did she make that assumption? i get youre going through it but it feels like you're leaving something out here.

Would you want to pick up a nasty used mattress?

I don't really know at this point. She just doesn't trust me anymore. She thinks it's disrespectful that I didn't tell her about it. All of these are feelings that I don't think are uncalled for.

>I find myself with 0 memory about who I got here , who is my girlfriend,  where am I, why am I drugged,  how the fuck I speak Spanish.. complete blackout.

This kind of sounds like ego death. Did you even know your own name at that point?