Not to worry. By the time you hit 50 you won’t remember not knowing anything.

No, seriously..I can’t remember anything now.

you are the most mature person on reddit, where's the award for that??

You think psychedelics are variable? Try some anticholinergic deliriants some time (or perhaps not..). Pure guessworks for the effects from a slightly dry mouth to weeks of sheer madness.

Don’t beat yourself up about it, you wanted to create something in this genre of games, it’s bound to have some similarities. Are you enjoying creating it? Will you enjoy playing it? I don’t know much about this sort of game, I’m aware of D&D, but it just wasn’t my thing, but I’m sure shadowrun borrowed a bunch of ideas from somewhere. You have a chance to make something you think is even better, do it! As long as it isn’t a verbatim copyright-infringing clone, go for it. People may prefer yours, but how will you know? Good luck

You’ll figure it all out when you turn 39 like me. Lol, jk. I too don’t know anything.

College can be lonely for sure, so when you find the right friends -- really invest in one another. Also, it's really mature of you to be able to talk it out and accept the understanding of what's not just within, but around you. Perhaps a nice warm blanket + whatever genre of movies you like and a cup of cocoa would help. Put time into others outside of 1-on-1s is always a good approach too.

My ego death experiences included terror as everything slipped away, elation as reality began to return and I remembered that I was human and this was just an exploratory trip, and then a strong sense of having made peace with existence. Fear of death was just a fleeting fear.

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He is used to higher doses but these are different shrooms. I've taken eights that have given me a mild trip and I have taken 8ths that have made me into a psychotic zombie for 6 hours.

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Chances are he just took some normal mushrooms that were stronger than he was used to. This occompanied with whatever kind of shit was going on in his life led to a bad trip. I've seen it a million times.

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Its the same as any other psychedelic. Sometimes 3 hits sends you on a great journey. Somtimes you end up in a hellish place and have to hold on by the seat of your pants for the next 8 hours. Just because it went great last time, that doesn't mean next time will be the same thing.

Yeah, panic at the start can spiral the experience into negativland a bit, for sure. 3.5g is a very solid trip for most folks.

Stop doing drugs. That's it. If you do not plan on taking drugs for your entire life and becoming a heroin junkie, at one point you just have to call it quits on all the "bliss" drugs bring you.

Dude. Give your brain a rest for a bit.

Dosing shrooms can be a dicey business. Some strains can be 3x the active ingredient content of others. Or your new dealer is spiking them with 4-AcO-DMT.

Funnily enough I've never bought shrooms from a dealer. They grow on the hills around here (p. semilanceata, liberty caps) so I know what I'm taking. Still quite variable, but within limits. I wouldn't trust a dealer.

Shrooms are natural and therefore the dosage is completely unpredictable. He bought these shrooms from a new dealer so they absolutely could have been more potent than others he's bought. Or maybe all the past ones he bought from a previous dealer were super weak. Reality is that since its unregulated and if you're buying from different people, you will never know the true potency of the shrooms you're taking.

Also I've had super delayed shrooms trips because of eating them on a very full stomach. It takes longer to digest because of that. But I also agree with you that these shrooms could have been laced with something else. But I wouldn't discount the fact that these might have just been super strong shrooms.

So it's not just me. I just assumed I was bitch made when it came to them. I started out taking 3.5g I was told that was a standard dose for if I wanted to properly trip. So that's what I did. Usually that was all I would take and I'd have a very intense experience and a great time, but I ended up getting 8 grams and fucked up and forgot that I'd bought extra this time. I didn't eat the entire bag but I got pretty close, ended up throwing up and panicking when I realized. Probably why the trip was so dark at first.

that works!

Of course you can, but i’ll send it in a private message if that’s okay.

Nonsense. OP himself said he was used to higher doses. Personally I'll take ten times that, and have never had a bad trip. Also, the delay before onset of the bad trip isn't what I'd expect from shrooms as opposed to something 'treated' with pcp or who knows what to make it more potent.

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From my experience that absolutely is an insane amount to take. The most I've ever seen someone do IRL is 6g and that was a lot for him. I personally have never gone higher than 3 and have found that overwhelming at times.

That's not what I'm saying. I'm saying that I didn't realize that dose was considered the kind of thing that destroyed people. I've always thought of myself as a bit of a lightweight when it came to psychedelics.

Obviously it's extreme, how can you possibly explain that experience you had and not see that it's extreme?

3g is definitely a high dose, especially if they are potent shrooms.

I dumped my first boyfriend telling him I was a lesbian. And I did actually like girls, so I then proceeded to date one for about 8 months until I found out she cheated on me. About a year later I found out I was falling for a male friend and apparently it was mutual, we've been together ever since (13 years).

I identified as a lesbian for a while, then bi, now pan. Sexuality is a spectrum and who you are attracted to may or may not change during your whole life. That said it's ok to put a label on yourself if that makes you comfortable, now tho that you can change how you view and label yourself a you please. Life is a journey of discovery.