I have a kid about your age, and reading this made me start tearing up at work.

NEVER feel like you've done something wrong or burdened somebody by telling them something like this. If you have a teacher or friend or counselor that you can report these kind of things to, that you can trust, never feel like you've done anything wrong.

If you were my son, or one of his friends, and felt like you could come to me and tell me this I would do the exact same thing as your teacher (legal requirements or no) and absolutely reinforce that you did the right thing by trusting me with this information.

It's not wrong. You've done nothing wrong. There was no mistake.

I hope you are coping well with everything, and I'm glad to hear that your teacher responded letting you know that you did the right thing and would love for you to keep visiting.

I've taken a heavy dose of LSD that gave me intense hallucinations but I still knew where I was and who was around me. None of the drugs I've ever played around with made me forget those things. OPs experience is super off, something wasn't right with those shrooms.

We are all human and do human things that humans enjoy.

Don't be harsh on someone for being in a loving relationship. I hope you can see your way past that viewpoint of her.

3g is hardly a violent amount for people who have been doing them for months

>I'm thinking to myself that's it , you really done this time , you fucked up , you fucked up so bad , there isn't way back from this , this girls death is going to be on you , you will never see your family or daylight again , you fucked up , the life you know are over , you have to do something to fix it , if you're going to let this girl fall asleep she won't wake up.

Yeah it's the irrational thoughts like these that come up during hard trips that I wasn't expecting. I was convinced that my boss knew I was having a bad trip (on the weekend, 5 hours away and no contact), that I could see the future, that I was gonna marry this girl I just met. All things that seem really stupid after the fact. They're based on reality just enough to seem convincing and of course your altered mind accepts them. It can be scary.

I didn't want to ask, so thank you! 🤣 /s

Fwb never hurt no one

Was she hot?

I do shrooms or lsd like once every couple months and it's absolutely great. I always make sure I'm surrounded by people I like, that I'm in the right state of mind and that hopefully we have a trip sitter. If you do it right and respect it then it can be a great experience.

At least you had fun putting it together. You didn't waste time you did what you like.

Good on you OP for understanding her position and not making this something more messy than it needed 2 be just remember 2 keep your head

You can take it as a sign to quit if you want but I’m going to go ahead and say they were really potent and you were not ready to take them. Kind of like driving a car really fast thinking you’ve done this 1000 times before and you’ll be okay. If you do it all the time you’re going to have a bad trip at some point.

Machine elves.. have you even done shrooms bud?

I had a very brief ego death on 1.5gs of albino penis envy, they are definitely potent little buggers.

We texted each other about what happened today. Here is what I think I understood. Her values dictate that you need to make it clear to your partner about the experience you've had. She thought it was special that we'd share our first time together (we haven't had sex yet because we've lived together only for a couple of months). She'd just be a little miffed about it if I'd told her before. Now, she holds me responsible for not telling her this before we've even considered having sex. I feel like we'd definitely have spoken about it before our first time together.

Now, I also spoke to her about how she felt about my ex. She admits that my behaviour early on made her feel threatened by my ex girlfriend (we were long distance back then and I hadn't figured out her love language). I don't blame her for this. But the strange thing is, I think she genuinely was in denial about me being physically intimate with my ex girlfriend. Despite me trying to tell her that I did have some experience, she didn't really process it at the time.

Honestly it just seems as though we are people with different values and beliefs who do a terrible job at communicating these beliefs. Sure I did mess up by not immediately making it clear but the reason her reaction is so extreme is because of things beyond my control.

My dearest child, you have made no mistakes.

You are strong, resilient and amazing.

Please stop feeling that you made a mistake (which is so much easier for me to ask than for you to do). You have done nothing wrong. The person who hurt you is the who is in the wrong.

You deserve happiness, love and respect. You don't deserve what this person did to you.

I am so happy that you have an adult you can trust, please go to her whenever you need.

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Better be safe than sorry! Ill send you a private message

2 grams of albino penis envy mushrooms is enough. Anything past that you're walking into ego death territory

yeeeasss i swear there’s a name for it! i was trying so hard not to get scared because that would be so bad 🤣

>if it can get this bad why the fuck do you still do it?

Because it's not normally like this for a lot of people. It's kind of like drinking, if you drink in excess, you can blackout and have a terrible time.

I don't do mushrooms a lot or on the regular, but when I do it's small doses. If I get a shroom I never had before, I practice caution and take small amount so I can better understand how it will effect me. Never have I experienced a situation where I became so disoriented that I didn't know who I am, who the people around me were, and so on.

This isn't remotely close to normal and OP should stay away from shrooms.

Not really familiar with shrooms, what's ego death?

Same happened to me. I didnt go to therapy for it, but it took years to get back to normal. I was not okay for a long time.

ah.... memory/thought loops. they can get scary though. i felt like i was stuck in an actual loop, re-enacting the same moments over and over again for all eternity. i was panicking for a while until i started coming down. it was probably half an hour, but it felt like hours

No, you most certainly did not f up at all! You did the right thing, and so did your teacher who reported it. I'm so glad she's taking it seriously!