As a fellow BPD patient, you can’t use BPD as an excuse to “say things you don’t mean” even if you warn people. By definition, we ARE manipulative, even subconsciously. If you make yourself or anyone else think that you’re just saying things because of an episode, you’ll use that as an advantage later. Maybe not on purpose, but I’ve done it myself. All you can do is apologize and say you’re not in a good spot mentally at the moment, and respect their decision, which you’ve said you’ll do. That means, not trying to justify the reason you did it, and not arguing against their feelings if and when they do respond. You’ll have to teach yourself to react differently and recognize symptoms. I was single for YEARS because I knew I had work to do, and now, through therapy with a counselor AND personal work, I can be a great partner and friend and family member. I recommend buying some DBT materials and BPD books while waiting for therapy, and doing a lot of internal work. Don’t try to do work based off things you read online! Online can be a terrible place to read anything about BPD, unless you know exactly what you’re looking for through a reputable source.

Best of luck to you, I hope things do work out in your best interest. If things don’t work out with this partner, perhaps take some time alone to work on yourself.

Inspired by a recent post on Two X-Chromosomes methinks

Was Chad's actual name Patrick Bateman?

Maybe you need to seek treatment first

Well OP, was this 👆 the case?

Mostly were internal/vaginal. But it went all the way to my a-hole.

I know it sounds scary but honestly I’m good now. It was worth it, and now I have an intelligent 12yo daughter who talks back to me all the time. :)

I'm not from the US or anything but I see there's a version of that site in my own language, so this might be useful to look into. Thank you so much for the suggestion! :)

Thanks for asking! Pooping was tough for a while (thank goodness for Colace!). My OB told me to consider a c-section for future births since my perineum was (is) paper thin (think possibly leaking poo juices for the rest of my life if I had to get another episiotomy). So… I went with the c-section 16 months later with my son.

I will say recovering from the episiotomy/47 stitches was easier/less painful than the C-section. Surprisingly. But I don’t regret going that route the second time since it could’ve turned out pretty bad otherwise.

Don't worry, the home warranty would have refused to cover every one of those items, or charged you a higher call out fee than most of the actual repair people in your area would for the entire repair.

What about online therapy? I've been using 7cups for years and have been very happy with it. It's also cheaper than most, too. I'm not sure what insurance you may or may not have.

spicing things up with a hooker on the first date? what?

The seller bought you that so you wouldn't ask for them to do actual necessary repairs in the contract, or accuse them of hiding necessary repairs and ask for later fixes.

They exist to create a legal loophole that intentionally screws the buyer.

I agree, I remember a version of this story. I think it might have been on r/twoxchromosomes

> straight to my house ~5 minutes away

ROOKIE MISTAKE! You’re supposed to take a long/wrong way home to misdirect them in case they send someone after you, chasing you for that pack of Oreos

It’s hard to believe you believe a word of this

This is pretty unbelievable. How would a sex worker have access to his apartment for 2+ hours in advance? And on top of that agree to sit around and wait? I’m calling BS

> took a piss on camera

You innocent, innocent person...if you read enough of these TIFUs, you know it could have been far worse! I’m talking diarrhea, farting, talking yourself through constipation like it’s childbirth...be happy it was only a piss

Electrical, plumbing, carpentry,. Tile work, etc. It's hard on your body.

You'll get banned from the store most likely. Doubt anything else will happen because no one stopped you; nor arrested you.

Shoplifting was taken more seriously when I was 15 and got caught. I owed 240$ in restitution and had to work 30 days of community service.

Maybe I am taking your message too literally (if so I apologize), but I don't think it's fair to say that I am not taking it seriously. I obviously am, if I wasn't I wouldn't have written this post and done all the things I did since it happened. I didn't expect people to give me sympathy or whatever but I do find it kind of weird how the responses so far make it seem like I'm not taking accountability for my actions.

someone splain me how this "hooker" got into his apartment before he and her showed up?

what if it was just his sister?

I have a feeling you may be 100% correct.

Seller paid for my home warranty for the first year. Just got a free furnace out of it. We'll worth having especially in older homes.

This is not a carte blanche for you to "say things you don't mean". You need to take this seriously and start working hard on keeping this under control.

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