Then ask to go. Just cause she's unlikely to offer doesn't mean she won't take you if you ask to go.

Wait until a heavier day to try for the first few times. Pulling out a mostly dry tampon is unpleasant. Some tampons are of different lengths, too. (Generic/cheaper one tend to be longer?) Buy a plastic applicator deal for the first time - cardboard and no applicator is more advanced skill. What you buy depends on your flow - if you soak heavier pads, you are looking at super for light days and super plus/ultra for the heaviest part, maybe even with a pad backup. You will find a brand that works, and will not want to switch unless there is a tampon shortage or some other issue. Playtex plastic applicator are nice to start. You will get to the point of doing this without thinking about it. Don't flush tampons - Packages used to say that it is was ok, but no longer do. Some toilets can't handle it, and you will likely clog, esp if multiple women are in the same situation. (They really need to come up with some better wrap for disposal when out - The thin wrap isn't good enough to contain a biohazard saturated cotton plug, but throwing it in the toilet out somewhere and risking that it wouldn't flush is also bad.)

Don’t be embarrassed, you were getting sex!

Ask her. I think she’d be very happy to take you.

"I won the argument about how my mom cares about me, now she sees I was right and that she shouldn't care about me because everything is meaningless."

Go apologize and go talk to a doctor.

Perhaps this is your sign that you need help then eh? The only way things will get better is if you put the effort in dude. Your mum was actively trying to help yet you spent 2 hours shoving all of that back into her face. Apologies only go so far; actions speak louder than words.

You want to apologize, you need to show that you're willing to move forward, even if it's hard. I'm 34 with chronic depression since i was 11, but I do my absolute best to keep it from spreading to others. I won't deny that I should get medicated, but that's on me to do as an adult. Your mum is trying to be the adult and get you help. But ultimately, it's much like AA or NA or whatever Anonymous Help groups there are... you have to take the step to acknowledge things, and then take the step to move forward.

Even if you want to take a nihilistic approach to life and saying that life in itself has no meaning, you can always give yourself and your life meaning. What meaning do you want your life to have? Only you can decide. But if people are trying to help you get into a better headspace, try hearing them out sincerely.

Sounds like you really do need that medication, based on how you view this interaction as a contest. Hope this is a turning point for you

The older you get the more you'll treasure moments like this. My girlfriend will occasionally throw something ridiculous into sex, which we both laugh about until we can't breathe. For instance: I had a cat when we first started dating, who was not fixed. Before she got fixed she would always "present" (that's where a female cat assumes the position), and while doing so let out these agonizingly cute "chirping" sounds. Imagine it as rolling your tongue with increasing pitch, as if asking a question. Years later, we still have the cat, she no longer does that weird shit, and all is well. Until one night, while having sex, my girlfriend perfectly mimicked that chirping sound knowing full well that it would destroy the mood, but make me laugh. I can't remember every time I've had sex with her, but I'll never forget laughing with her that night.

All I'm saying is, you'll be happier if you own it, and laugh with her. :)

I did the same thing when I was 13 but my tampon fell out in the pool.

You made it even better

When you say Desert Eagle, is your dick precisely 12.7x33mm? Is it pretty damn big but not the biggest? Or is it decent sized but still not a rifle? That’s a very confusing metaphor. Unless it’s not a metaphor and it is in fact 12.7x33

I have not worn underwear in years. So much more comfortable. Buy a box of tampons, they come with instructions. Keep a couple tampons in your purse so not caught off guard again.

You say you're 16 - you can get a GP appointment yourself, show her you want to make steps to get well again.

If you're in the UK there are services you can self-refer to as well. The wait lists tend to be long, but it will hopefully show that progress can be made.

You could also try some techniques at home - with my students we recommend Healthy Minds (https://www.lpft.nhs.uk/young-people/lincolnshire/young-people/i-need-more-help/low-mood-and-depression) BUT this would be temporary until you could get further support

On that, you could talk to teachers at school, school nurse - anyone in a position with safeguarding will have a requirement to move things forward and be able to give you more specific advice

I misread it as ‘thrust’

I only heard about it via the internet, but it's helpful for cleaning up blood and such. Not as often as those with periods might need it, but still good to know considering how often I end up having to clean blood, lol

thank you for a helpful reply. im not quite sure where to go from here as my mum isnt speaking to me and im not sure she’ll offer to take me again

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I know how horrible it feels to be in that place but knowing that feeling, you'd hate for anyone to be there. You know you fucked up so not going to belabour the point, but hopefully this will be the motivation you need to see that you. Need. Help.

Yes the world sucks, but rays of light like your mum (who obviously loves you very much) help people get through each day. Focus on those, and you'll eventually end up being a ray of light for others in dark times.

But get off reddit and get proper help man - seriously

Once my mom taught me that, I always wondered why folks had period underwear. I taught so many friends about it and they were upset at how many pairs of undies they’ve thrown away or had permanently stained. Truly spread the magic world of science! ✨

You have to start leaning into these laughs and enjoy yourself.

Then get an Uber

Just eat weird. Cut everything with a knife and fork, then open your gob as wide as you can and chuck the food to the back. Look at the sky and chew with your mouth open.

You poor thing

Gosh dang I hope that was good ice cream!

im sorry i didnt mean it in the way you think, what im saying is that i dont think she will offer to take me to the doctors again